009- [phone] Practical considerations....

[springtime4me]

[Hitler has been nowhere to be found since Christmas, but he did leave presents under the tree for his not!family. For Nigel there is a junior chemistry set, which he figures the kid can use in that weird spy game he's always playing. It's just adorable how he's always sneaking around pretending to be a secret agent or something....  Sideswipe gets a first aid kit and a book on basic health and medicine, because it seems like he gets hurt a whole lot. Maybe it's because he isn't used to having a human body.... And there is even a gift for drone!mom. She gets a sewing kit to replace the one that he's been using since he got there. There is also a shiny new bunker on the front lawn.]

[Hitler has been sitting in that bunker for the better part of two days. He isn't stupid. He knows exactly what he has to do. And it's probably what he should do. The town was probably trying to teach him a lesson about believing that he could escape who and what he was. Believing that he could make friends and have a life of his own. He didn't deserve any of that. But.... did he really deserve this? To die the way his original did? Was there no way to escape fate? He had prayed for answers, clutching his Almighty Dolly tightly, like a lifeline. But none came.  Maybe now it's time to accept his fate......

So he picks up the gun, and the phone, and makes one last call. This call is for purely practical reasons, but he can't quite keep his voice steady.]

He- hello? Umm..... I was just wondering...... If.... someone was going to k-kill themselves, with a gun, what would be the least painful way?

Comments

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

It's not your fault. You didn't do anything to deserve this. It's just Mayfield playing with your insecurities. They've done this before, it's just the same thing again!

[springtime4me.livejournal.com]

Kay..... I started... lying to people. Not telling them my last name. Just because I wanted them to like me.


......Just because I wanted friends.

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

Compared to what some people in this town have done, that's nothing. It's not even a lie - it's just not telling people your last name. And what's wrong with wanting friends? You just wanted to meet people and make friends with them without getting judged immediately because of whose last name you happen to share. It's not like you picked the name or anything, right?

You're not a bad person, Adolf. I know it, your friends know it, and I'm pretty sure you know it too. So stop talking like this is something you deserve, okay? You're not the only person who had something bad happen to them for Christmas. None of us deserve any of it. You're no exception.

[springtime4me.livejournal.com]

I share a lot more than just his name.... Exact genetic copy, remember?

[Honestly, a lot of what she says rings true. But it also goes completely against the entire belief system he grew up on.]

Back in school, Rasputin used to say that if we had enough faith, we could escape our fates... I'd give anything to...

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

So what? That doesn't mean you have to live the same life he did. He chose to do those things. You don't have to make the same choices, and you sure as hell don't have to die the same way... cold and alone like that. The original Hitler didn't have any friends at all at the end. But you've got plenty of friends. I bet I'm not the only one who tried to talk you out of this. That's a pretty big difference just by itself, don't you think?

[springtime4me.livejournal.com]

Kay.....

[She's right. Other people have tried to talk him out of this.]

Do you actually..... consider me a friend?

[Most of his fellow clones wouldn't consider him as anything better than a classmate. And one to be avoided besides. Before Mayfield, the only friend he'd ever had was Shiro.]

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

"Of course I do!"

[Of course, Kay's requirement for 'friend' honestly isn't much more than 'have we had at least one pleasant conversation. But that doesn't make her statement any less true.]

[springtime4me.livejournal.com]

[And Hitler's requirement is 'anyone who considers me a friend' so neither of the are picky.]

Thank you..... That really means a lot to me, Kay. For what its worth, I consider you a friend too.

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

"I'm glad."

[She sounds a little relieved. Sounds like he's coming around at last.]

"So that's why you have to be tough and make it through this, okay? I don't like seeing my friends get hurt."

[springtime4me.livejournal.com]

[He can't help but smile. Kay is a really good person...]

Right.

Now if I only had a way out of here...

[thief-of-truth.livejournal.com]

If the only other way out is the gun, you might just have to try to wait it out. I guess there's probably no food or water in there, huh?